Would you have the guts to say,

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading

So sick and tired of all the needless beating

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i feel like curling my hair. those cute small curls. but i cant imagine myself with that kind of hair.... yet. and ill let my natural hair grow. have to let it grow longer tho. i have no idea how long should i wait.

straight hairs are just... boring.

morning class cancelled for tmr. so i wont be going to sch. i dislike wed's afternoon class because all i have to do is enter the lab, sit down, or just do whatever i like meanwhile the rest will be busy with their project. booooring.

no class on friday too. no plans on saturday sunday and monday. AH NICE.

just fuck my life.

as usual ar no valentine this year. never had valentine before, but im cool with it. ALMOST had valentine last year tho, but i was a... fool. lol. i will usually get so emotional on valentines during yesteryears. but as i grow older, i think its just not important to celebrate it. or, is it maybe my heart is turning into.. a stone. HEHE.

theres this guy... though. i have no idea who he is. but his face is in my phone! hes so brady cute!!! yknow i RARELY praise guys right. like once in a bloody blue moon. ok well i dont think he lives here. here as in here, spore.

uhm. well. hes just a goddamn picture la dammit.

anw. talking about cute/good looking guys. i am still sticking with my thinking. i will NEVER date them. theyre ONLY nice to see. thats about it.

good looking guys only gives me stress.

Monday, February 8, 2010

kau peh barang aku dah bukak from hp aku. macam nak buang pon ade. tapi macam tak baik pulak kan. kau punye forehead dah macam ade label 'Horny Bastard' HAHAHAHA thanks to asfa.

phuket jadi ke tak aku pon tak tau. change of plans maybe. blablabla. besok nak renew passport ke tak eh?

bill hp this mth confirm belambong gila babi. all because of surfing the net. padan muka aku. but now wifi rumah aku dah ok. yay :)

rws is opening. and ive yet to try all the rides. shouldnt have ditch work last saturday.

boo.

and mates. what would you do if you happen to have a very and i really mean VERY arrogant family member/colleague/classmate? you would prolly ignore him/her and do your own stuffs, yes?

hmmmmmmmmm. i wonder if that matter can ever be resolve.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Phuket baby.

ditched work yesterday. i'll work only when i've totally recover. so i was home for the whole day on a saturday for the first time after a few months.
anw, i'll be going Phuket on the 27th till 2nd with Chacha and Asfa. omg, i can finally announce that news. thanks, Dad for approving. yay :) and OF COURSE. thanks, Chacha for 'sponsoring' HEHE. whooppee! :D can't wait. gonna renew my passport next week.
we were randomly planning about going overseas once upon a time last week, and look! we're are so lucky, aren't we. it's gonna be really great :)
and i can't wait to rape asfa on the first night. that's the part i'm really looking forward to.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Go ahead, destroy me.

hopes, faiths, dreams.. what are those for? for a person like me.

i think i am feeling the changes. i think it's only for the worse. at the same time, i couldn't bother about what's going to happen to me.

i am not so innocent... afterall. i think i am beginning to learn to hate. to cheat. to break. i never thought that i would... ever. i am learning a lot more. you don't want to know.

i have no idea if the road that's leading me is destroying me slowly. i'm losing my grip and i couldn't bother. be it, if it's good for me or otherwise, i'll be going with the flow. still.

i don't care. i don't bother. because i don't matter.
i do not have much people that i am close with in my life. first and foremost, i've lost love. now, i am slowly losing friends.. close friends to be specific. aren't i. sometimes i wonder. what's there to live. when all i could do is to watch all my loved ones walking away from my life, one after another.
wasted life it is.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Mind not in peace.

high fever, dry throat, major headache.
fml ):

i'am still feeling guilty. and i'am still waiting. i know that you read my blog. why won't you let out everything. i want to hear EVERYTHING from you. i'am tired of hearing it from the others. stop making me having this guilty feeling, and just tell me.

done. have a good february, loves.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

'Hmm, lalala' is a disease.

our eyes met. but i quickly look away. i just dont feel the need to smile, stop, and open up a conversation. and when i first look at you, i feel hatred. opps?

im so bored now. my phone is so quiet. and its been a month ): but thats ok. gotta keep it that way. but ive got unlimited free sms. text me leiii, anyone. hehe :P

im wondering what to do on valentine. prolly celebrating it w the girls. but its a public holiday. and if i were to work, its gonna be double pay!! 13bucks per hour. whoopee! who dont want! maybe i should work. or, maybeeeeee. hehe. hmm lalala.

meeting my babies tmr. yay. love 'em :)

currently at work. have to study for a test ltr. bahhhhh. rock climbing ltr, i guess? on a BRIGHTER noteee, we gonna ride on the mummy ride laterrrrr!!!! its open, finally! omg. so cant wait.

also for today, my name is steffany. hehehehe....

Friday, January 29, 2010

no one has the right to criticize anything in a way that would bother and upset the other side.

i mean... hey, i don't think your parents ever taught you that, right? and im pretty sure by criticizing, it would not make you any better.

instead, you're just making a fool of yourself because you're making others to think that you're just another plain immatured person.

criticizing is never cool. nuff said.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I AM SO BLARDY TAN NOW. LIKE SO FUCKING BLARDY TAN. I DON'T THINK ANYONE COULD RECOGNISE ME ANYMORE. FUCK MY LIFE PLEASE.

on a lighter note, work has been good. though it's super tiring ar. esp standing and walking under the sun. well it's gooooood (: and the breakfast/lunch/dinner are all provided. for freeeee. and there's a few numbers of meal there i can choose. mai guudneez. sho kewlz.

and my uniform looks like the NCC uniform. uhm. which is.. fine i guess. i loike.

but the sad thing is, i'll be working on the weekends. and as usual, school on the weekdays. i don't even have time for myself. tsk. oh and anyway. just a note. guess i'll be changing my number AGAIN soon. prolly next week. yeah insyallah :)

well, besides the fact that i am becoming tan-ner.... i think i am becoming more like a zombie. zzZzzZz. feel like skipping school tmr. ha. bye.

PS I have a confession to make. this time it's different from all the previous stories you heard.
PPS the-anotherside updated :)

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Go away.

i've started night jog since yesterday. i found this area where i can jog peacefully, and i like it :) bye gym.

i've been eating too much. like really too much. my mouth just CAN'T stop munching. munch munch munch. i know i've gained a few kilos. i am so afraid to weigh myself. that would prolly be the last thing i'd do.

i'm becoming tan-ner since the soccer match last week ): i can't stop staring at my arms. yes, i STARE at them everytime i have the chance to. shucks.

i feel SUPER fugly. no, wait. i am fugly what. fuck myself. fuck myself. fuck myself.

But baby, where they knock you down and out

Is where you oughta stay

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
	Tuesday, February 9, 2010 i feel like curling my hair. those cute small curls. but i cant imagine myself with that kind of hair.... yet. and ill let my natural hair grow. have to let it grow longer tho. i have no idea how long should i wait. straight hairs are just... boring. morning class cancelled for tmr. so i wont be going to sch. i dislike wed's afternoon class because all i have to do is enter the lab, sit down, or just do whatever i like meanwhile the rest will be busy with their project. booooring. no class on friday too. no plans on saturday sunday and monday. AH NICE. just fuck my life. as usual ar no valentine this year. never had valentine before, but im cool with it. ALMOST had valentine last year tho, but i was a... fool. lol. i will usually get so emotional on valentines during yesteryears. but as i grow older, i think its just not important to celebrate it. or, is it maybe my heart is turning into.. a stone. HEHE. theres this guy... though. i have no idea who he is. but his face is in my phone! hes so brady cute!!! yknow i RARELY praise guys right. like once in a bloody blue moon. ok well i dont think he lives here. here as in here, spore. uhm. well. hes just a goddamn picture la dammit. anw. talking about cute/good looking guys. i am still sticking with my thinking. i will NEVER date them. theyre ONLY nice to see. thats about it. good looking guys only gives me stress. Monday, February 8, 2010 kau peh barang aku dah bukak from hp aku. macam nak buang pon ade. tapi macam tak baik pulak kan. kau punye forehead dah macam ade label 'Horny Bastard' HAHAHAHA thanks to asfa. phuket jadi ke tak aku pon tak tau. change of plans maybe. blablabla. besok nak renew passport ke tak eh? bill hp this mth confirm belambong gila babi. all because of surfing the net. padan muka aku. but now wifi rumah aku dah ok. yay :) rws is opening. and ive yet to try all the rides. shouldnt have ditch work last saturday. boo. and mates. what would you do if you happen to have a very and i really mean VERY arrogant family member/colleague/classmate? you would prolly ignore him/her and do your own stuffs, yes? hmmmmmmmmm. i wonder if that matter can ever be resolve. Sunday, February 7, 2010 Phuket baby. ditched work yesterday. i'll work only when i've totally recover. so i was home for the whole day on a saturday for the first time after a few months. anw, i'll be going Phuket on the 27th till 2nd with Chacha and Asfa. omg, i can finally announce that news. thanks, Dad for approving. yay :) and OF COURSE. thanks, Chacha for 'sponsoring' HEHE. whooppee! :D can't wait. gonna renew my passport next week. we were randomly planning about going overseas once upon a time last week, and look! we're are so lucky, aren't we. it's gonna be really great :) and i can't wait to rape asfa on the first night. that's the part i'm really looking forward to. Friday, February 5, 2010 Go ahead, destroy me. hopes, faiths, dreams.. what are those for? for a person like me. i think i am feeling the changes. i think it's only for the worse. at the same time, i couldn't bother about what's going to happen to me. i am not so innocent... afterall. i think i am beginning to learn to hate. to cheat. to break. i never thought that i would... ever. i am learning a lot more. you don't want to know. i have no idea if the road that's leading me is destroying me slowly. i'm losing my grip and i couldn't bother. be it, if it's good for me or otherwise, i'll be going with the flow. still. i don't care. i don't bother. because i don't matter. i do not have much people that i am close with in my life. first and foremost, i've lost love. now, i am slowly losing friends.. close friends to be specific. aren't i. sometimes i wonder. what's there to live. when all i could do is to watch all my loved ones walking away from my life, one after another. wasted life it is. Monday, February 1, 2010 Mind not in peace. high fever, dry throat, major headache. fml ): i'am still feeling guilty. and i'am still waiting. i know that you read my blog. why won't you let out everything. i want to hear EVERYTHING from you. i'am tired of hearing it from the others. stop making me having this guilty feeling, and just tell me. done. have a good february, loves. Saturday, January 30, 2010 'Hmm, lalala' is a disease. our eyes met. but i quickly look away. i just dont feel the need to smile, stop, and open up a conversation. and when i first look at you, i feel hatred. opps? im so bored now. my phone is so quiet. and its been a month ): but thats ok. gotta keep it that way. but ive got unlimited free sms. text me leiii, anyone. hehe :P im wondering what to do on valentine. prolly celebrating it w the girls. but its a public holiday. and if i were to work, its gonna be double pay!! 13bucks per hour. whoopee! who dont want! maybe i should work. or, maybeeeeee. hehe. hmm lalala. meeting my babies tmr. yay. love 'em :) currently at work. have to study for a test ltr. bahhhhh. rock climbing ltr, i guess? on a BRIGHTER noteee, we gonna ride on the mummy ride laterrrrr!!!! its open, finally! omg. so cant wait. also for today, my name is steffany. hehehehe.... Friday, January 29, 2010 no one has the right to criticize anything in a way that would bother and upset the other side. i mean... hey, i don't think your parents ever taught you that, right? and im pretty sure by criticizing, it would not make you any better. instead, you're just making a fool of yourself because you're making others to think that you're just another plain immatured person. criticizing is never cool. nuff said. Sunday, January 24, 2010 I AM SO BLARDY TAN NOW. LIKE SO FUCKING BLARDY TAN. I DON'T THINK ANYONE COULD RECOGNISE ME ANYMORE. FUCK MY LIFE PLEASE. on a lighter note, work has been good. though it's super tiring ar. esp standing and walking under the sun. well it's gooooood (: and the breakfast/lunch/dinner are all provided. for freeeee. and there's a few numbers of meal there i can choose. mai guudneez. sho kewlz. and my uniform looks like the NCC uniform. uhm. which is.. fine i guess. i loike. but the sad thing is, i'll be working on the weekends. and as usual, school on the weekdays. i don't even have time for myself. tsk. oh and anyway. just a note. guess i'll be changing my number AGAIN soon. prolly next week. yeah insyallah :) well, besides the fact that i am becoming tan-ner.... i think i am becoming more like a zombie. zzZzzZz. feel like skipping school tmr. ha. bye. PS I have a confession to make. this time it's different from all the previous stories you heard. PPS the-anotherside updated :) Wednesday, January 20, 2010 Go away. i've started night jog since yesterday. i found this area where i can jog peacefully, and i like it :) bye gym. i've been eating too much. like really too much. my mouth just CAN'T stop munching. munch munch munch. i know i've gained a few kilos. i am so afraid to weigh myself. that would prolly be the last thing i'd do. i'm becoming tan-ner since the soccer match last week ): i can't stop staring at my arms. yes, i STARE at them everytime i have the chance to. shucks. i feel SUPER fugly. no, wait. i am fugly what. fuck myself. fuck myself. fuck myself.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay